From the recording Stumbling Forward

Lyrics

I never thought you’d ever let me see your face again
And I’ve survived on memories since I don’t even know when
I never told you anything, I’ll bet you haven’t a clue
That even after all this time I can’t let go of you.
 
Well I had hoped that everything about you’d come to change
And I could heal my aching heart with the words that we’d exchange
But evermore you’re sinking in, you caught me by surprise
And I’m afraid I’ve lost the world when I look in your eyes.
 
How can I convince myself that it’s not meant to be
When trying not to be in love is hard enough for me
I would have given anything to just end up with you
My hands are tied, I’ve lost it all, there’s nothing I can do
 
Well I’ve been damned to misery if this is how it ends
You sit here looking beautiful as we learn to be friends
I can’t begin to tell you how so much of me has died
And how I’ll slowly turn to ash and burn to death inside
 
How can I convince myself that it’s not meant to be
When trying not to be in love is hard enough for me
I would have given anything to just end up with you
My hands are tied, I’ve lost it all, there’s nothing I can do
 
And I’ve been keeping this so long
It’s every word it’s every song
And time is nothing but a slow decay
I really don’t know how to be
To live my life unhappily
And nothing feels like it can be okay
Again
 
We lift our empty coffee cups and walk out into the street
I say it’s so nice seeing you, I’m glad that we could meet
It’s just so perfect how the clouds have turned the sky to grey
And how I didn’t notice till you turned to walk away
 
How can I convince myself that it’s not meant to be
When trying not to be in love is hard enough for me
I would have given anything to just end up with you
My hands are tied, I’ve lost it all, there’s nothing I can do