Nicholas Wells

Fragile

2019. Really??

I was looking through some files on my computer. Back in 2009 I had a camera that, for some reason, incorrectly time-stamped all the of files as if they were created in 2019. It was just an absurd sounding year, I thought. Coming across those pictures and videos in recent days, supposedly shot this coming August, was a pretty strange feeling.

I counted down to midnight this past December 31st along with family, versus previous years, at a location which I will not mention…

I’m an open book. I’ve always been inclined to share everything with everyone, and it’s why my songs are truthfully honest. I promise that I’m still writing new songs, and will always continue to, but I wanted to add another piece of prose to the story; exposition, if you will.

As I lay back writing this, laptop on my stomach, the clock approaches two weeks from the hour that I lost my cat Kate, on this very couch. The grief I experienced in that moment, and in the weeks following, deflated the life out…

I figured I’d write a blog post to update you all on how Kate is doing. As many of you know, she hasn’t been in good shape for the past few weeks. I’ve been hesitant to post updates because there has been a lot in question, and there still is. I so much appreciate the outpouring of love and care that has come from you all. It’s meant so much to know that you are thinking about Kate, and sending us all of your positive wishes.

For those of you who don’t know Kate, this is her as of a week ago:

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I’ve spent a long time trying to keep the kid inside of me alive. I’ve always looked back, even at much younger ages, and thought about time spent and years lost. I’ve been afraid of change, so I’ve lived my life the same way for a long time - in the same place for a long time. Sometimes it seems scary to take that leap of faith that you’ve been aching to take. Often I have to remind myself that the few times I’ve taken great leaps of faith, I’ve always managed to land on my feet in one way or another. It…

       I was overwhelmed with emotion reading the comments to last week’s blog post.

       Someone very important once told me to ask myself: “does it matter how MANY people you are significant to, or is it more important HOW significant you are to the people who matter to you?”

       I’ve had the ambition of becoming a “rockstar” since I was about eight years old. Looking back, yes I believe I was always very excited about the idea of fame, and knowing that wherever I’d go I could make heads turn. But…

       It’s difficult to get to know each other 140 characters at a time. It’s even harder to delve into deeply rooted emotional struggle, or elation, and the unpredictable swaying scale balancing the two. I’ve been meaning to blog for quite a while but was uncertain of my diligence to maintain one. For the time being, I have a lot to say; to elaborate beyond the message of my music, and to do my best to inspire a community of kindred spirits. It’s always been about the music, which has always been about…