A Thousand Lifetimes
Lying here bleeding out alone
Dying in someone else's home.
They say that the years go by and
Time makes everything better.
They ask "do you think you have a plan?"
Ready to strap up both my hands
Thinking if they lock me away
They won't find a letter.
These pills were meant to make me numb,
And blur the days that I've come from.
I've suffered enough for a thousand lifetimes
I wish they could know the fire in my mind
Saying the flames might die down in me
Someday, someday.
Watching the past go wrong on repeat
Setting myself up for this defeat
If I'm gonna lose it might as well be
My way, my way.
Trying to keep from crashing down
I want to burn it to the ground.
I've already lost the things inside
That once were worth saving.
Collateral damage from the fall,
The only thing stopping me at all,
But empathy only goes so far
To keep me from caving.
These pills could never make me numb,
And blur the days that I've come from.
I've suffered enough for a thousand lifetimes
I wish they could know the fire in my mind
Saying the flames might die down in me
Someday, someday.
Watching the past go wrong on repeat
Setting myself up for this defeat
If I'm gonna lose it might as well be
My way, my way.
I don't want to choke I just want to go up in smoke
and cinder.
Emptiness burns and nobody learns that I'm
Surrounded by tinder.
And there's never been a way out.
I've suffered enough for a thousand lifetimes
I wish they could know the fire in my mind
Saying the flames might die down in me
Someday, someday.
Watching the past go wrong on repeat
Setting myself up for this defeat
If I'm gonna lose it might as well be
My way, my way.